It’s been a whole calendar month since my last post. I’ve been in a bit of a slump tbh. The incessant rain, wet, icy weather has kept me indoors for weeks and has put a severe strain on my relationship with Zwift again.
My Zwift racing project hasn’t really materialised. I did one race, got benched for the next two and I’d let my fitness slip a bit and my mojo for it has evaporated. I look back on the numbers the guys in my category are pumping out and it took me straight back to why I left Zwift in the first place. Cheats. It might sound like sour grapes but I stand by the fact guys at the top of my category (where I used to be!) shouldn’t be capable of sustaining the level they do for the length of time they do it. It’s just fake. Interestingly a few of my team mates published their numbers in the teams private group and those were real. Better than me by about 30 watts but realistic and they’re getting a hiding week in week out too. I’m not sure if I can be arsed with it anymore. I’m still on there keeping myself ticking over but I am bored with it.
Next up my darts have gone south too. Since before Xmas my averages have plummetted which sent me down a rabbit hole to find a different dart setup and alter my throw. I’ve seen some marginal improvements occasionally but I’ve just been too shit for too long not withstanding I’ve been benched in the singles matches for my Team for a few weeks now too. Totally justified but not great for my confidence when you can’t see your way out of it.
Today though was a good day. An uplifting one. One that’s given me the boost I need
After weeks inside, I finally got out on the bike today. A 90 min ride to our store and back on my bike with my new bike position. It felt really good. I took it offroad down a sloppy towpath too. The heart and lungs were fine but I lacked a bit of brute strength and the rest of the body is smarting a bit where riding indoors doesn’t help. It was great for the soul though. It cleared my mind and repaired my mojo ready for my first gravel event in North Wales on Sunday. Outside is definitely the best place to be on a bike.
And last night at my darts match I got selected for the singles and repaid that faith in me by taking out the match winning shot in the last and deciding game of the night. A morale boost I really needed. Ironically, I’ve gone full circle and back to my original darts. They felt good so I’m sticking with them now and focussing on improvement rather than repair.
Not sure how to play Zwift. If I don’t race, I’m not sure it’s worth the investment as I can just switch back to MyWhoosh to do the odd workout. I’ll mull it over for a week or two and see if that mojo returns too but me and Zwift might be off again soon.
Adios
People get very focused on how depressing January is but I find February even more of a struggle. It’s almost, but not quite, Spring, we’ve had three months of cold, wet and dark and we’re all sick to the teeth of it. Two more weeks will hopefully make a great difference 🤞